It's true ok, is that what you wanna hear? I think of simple moments where I'm not distracted by some gigantic dream that I could spend my entire life trying to eat and never even skim the cream off the top. I think of moving back to California and I dream of marrying you and it would be this small-ish gypsy wedding- as small as it could be while still holding all our friends- and there would be gold and champagne and blueish green because you really like blueish green. It would be this kind of ocean thing since you love being in the water and I love sitting on the sand. I think about learning to dance with you and moving into a small home and staying still and not wanting to move around. I don't remember ever not wanting to move around but I think life would be so happy and so full if I could learn to just stay still. I'm always inside the next moment. I can't wait to inhale the next breath that I never really taste this one and then not only is it gone, I'm breathless and I don't know where to go from there except to the next thing. I think about having children with you. I think about being a mother and that makes me happy to think of a baby girl sitting in my arms and you kissing my forehead. I think of things like this all the time. How could I not? You are exactly who I want to sit under the covers with eating ice cream. You are exactly the boy who I would watch football for. You're exactly the boy who could get me riding a motorcycle even though they scare me. You're exactly who I want raising my children. But I'm scared, not of these things but of getting tired of them eventually and wanting to get up and move away again and start a new life again the way I have every time I've gotten the least bit sleepy in whatever world I'm sitting in. I'm not scared of starting a life with you. I'm scared of leaving it behind.
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NORA
Well, that was quite the introduction. TOPAZ You haven’t said anything yet. NORA I meant you. TOPAZ Of course, I’m a hurricane that’s on fire and waiting to explode inside an earthquake. I always make an introduction. NORA Texting and driving. TOPAZ I like that! NORA What? TOPAZ It means you’re not like the crazy risk taker who jumps out of airplanes or saves people in burning buildings, but it means you’re orderly and fit into society relatively well but you want something more out of people and you want to communicate with the world and texting and driving is your small act of rebellion, it is you reaching out trying to touch the outside world that’s different from this bubble you’ve put yourself in. NORA Bubble. TOPAZ removes her painter’s shirt and is in a black tank top and red leather pants. TOPAZ moves to her purse. TOPAZ Do you wanna bubble? TOPAZ throws NORA a small bubble bottle and takes one out for herself. TOPAZ (cont.) Bubbles just always make me so happy. TOPAZ begins to blow bubbles. NORA stares. TOPAZ (cont.) You okay? NORA Yeah, I’m fine. TOPAZ Once, I was in New York and this woman came up to me and said, “I’m a medium and spiritual advisor and I saw in your aura you are smiling on the outside but crying on the inside. I want to help you! Can I help you?” NORA People say things like that all the time. TOPAZ Can I help you? NORA See! A pause. TOPAZ You don’t like being inside a bubble, do you? Why don’t you pop it? NORA It’s not that simple. TOPAZ Is that why you’re coming to live with us? NORA Oh! Did you say that I could? Did I miss that? TOPAZ Yeah, you were distracted. NORA Oh. TOPAZ No, just kidding. I never said that, but I do like you. And I think that we could do an interesting dance, you and I. NORA What do you mean? TOPAZ I’m really good at popping bubbles. And I need someone who doesn’t pop them so easily around to remind me that they’re pretty things once in awhile. |
Carol CabreraThe goal: Release the inner creator. The means: Write 365 words a day in any genre (fiction, non-fiction, poetry, theatre) for 365 days and make the work public. ArchivesCategories |